Time: My Worst Enemy

I am going to start this post by listing EVERYTHING I've done in the past few months. I apologize for not posting more than I should. It's been so long since I've had a stable amount of time to make a blog post, and then there are times when I do, but I just don't have the energy to compile my thoughts and write them in an entertaining manor. Sooo here goes:

I'm here in my bedroom of my third host family, and I wonder, "Where the heck has the time gone?" I feel like I got off the plane yesterday, and that I moved from host family to host family in a matter of hours. Every trip, every Wednesday afternoon, every experience just seems like a blur. I wish I could make the world slow down. I can't leave this country in 85 days! In one way, that seems like such a long time, but in others it feels like no time at all. I can't leave yet. I just got here! Right...?

It's amazing how time can be your best friend and your worst enemy. How sometimes a second is something cherished, and other times it's something you wish would go by faster. When I'm laughing around a table with my host family, realizing that I am understanding the conversation, participating in the conversation, I make the most of every second I spend around that table. I can't zone out. If I zone out, I miss something. That second will be over and I'll miss it.

The time I spent with my first host family was great- I was discovering things, learning the language, eating amazing food, and having the time of my life. The time went by at a normal pace. I could enjoy what I was doing because I had the time to enjoy it. In my second host family, the events morph together into a blur. I found myself having just as much fun, but it was harder to savor the moments because the time went by even faster. Every family dinner, every party, every episode of Supernatural with my host brother, every cake in the oven turned into a blur of one giant event. It's hard to differentiate between every little thing we did together. It's simply a blur of positive family togetherness. It's awesome, but at the same time it's really annoying. Now, here I am with my third family. A week has gone by already. I met half of the extended family. We already have things planned until the day I leave. These three months are going to go by even faster than the last three. I'm excited to go home, but at the same time, I can't imagine myself leaving. I'm a part of this family, but at the same time, I'm a complete foreigner. I understand, but at the same time, I don't.

So that's the past few months in a nutshell- learning, understanding, trying new things, going to new places, time flying by faster than I would like it to. OH, and I went to Paris! How cool is that?!

Sherrin (my INCREDIBLE Australian friend) and I in front of the Eiffel Tower!